[ It's a heinous crime indeed, but Killian has committed atrocious ones himself. Some in the name of himself and some in the name of revenge. When he was a pirate (before Milah) he had monstrous ways. Driven by his brother's death. ]
Loving her also means knowing when you don't quite measure up to what she deserves after everything she's been through.
does it? I killed and stole and destroyed for the the queen. I'll never deserve her love, but because I love her I'll do whatever I possibly can to be with her as long as I can.
I would die all over again for her, if there was no other choice. You have one, but it's up to you to take it.
I can't make you care about yourself enough to be willing to survive. But I hope with time you will realize what you are leaving behind. It's worth living for.
There's a difference between murdering and plundering free of your own mind and doing those things when a woman literally has full control over your actions, mate.
[ He knows what it's like to have your heart held and your everything manipulated. Only his manipulator was Gold. The snake. The serpent with no redemption. At least Regina tried to change. She did change. The Dark One has done everything in his power not to. ]
If you had lived do you think you'd be with her? Back home that is.
you say that, but I imagine it matters little to those that suffered.
( he's not giving himself a pass, though some might think he should. when he made the choice that left him powerless, isn't he responsible for the dangers wrought? )
I don't know. and that's far from the point, because even if some mad fate brought me to a world I no longer exist in, she'd still be in love with you. you might find yourself worthless, but she doesn't. and you're throwing away more than just your own chances by choosing to give up.
you have the mercy of time here. I suggest you use it. you might think this is selfless, but I think it's quite the opposite.
Would she though? Still be in love with me? If you had somehow lived through your ordeal or never even been killed at all. If you were liberated and allowed to be apart of her life. She would have never even given me a second glance when she met me in the Enchanted Forest. I'd still be just a pirate.
you're hinging on hypotheticals that will always exist, whether I did or not.
it doesn't matter what could have been. what matters is what is. and if she loves you and you choose to abandon her, then you don't love her as much as you think you do.
( frankly, that's a little harsh. but nothing seems to be getting through, perhaps harsh might. )
I would challenge you not to hinge on hypotheticals when the woman you love and have given everything for--nevermind. It's the same thing from you lot anyways. Not Emma. But is Emma. Not that Emma, but a different one. Doesn't matter because she doesn't change in the parts that matter. She never has.
no, I can't, but I can say what I think, and what I think is that love is not so selfish.
you're not sparing her anything by choosing to abandon her. if Emma had a say in this, would she want you to give up? I certainly doubt so, considering how upset my wife is at the idea, and she knows you only little.
this place can offer you opportunity. you may not care about your own life, but there are others that do. consider them if you can't consider yourself. don't use me as an excuse to give up, that's your own choice.
then you're wrong. Emma cares deeply about absolute strangers, though she does take care to hide it. and she knows you, though not as well as you'd like her to.
I know I am. but I have perspective you don't, I've had longer to face the prospect that I was meant to die. it wasn't an easy one to face. I know that the world kept spinning without me, Emma found her family and broke the curse. for a time I even wondered if I was avoiding the inevitable.
maybe I am; as long as there is a chance to keep fighting, though, I'm going to. I have things worth living for, worth fighting for. and if you have a woman that loves you, I imagine you do as well.
[ She tolerates him because of what Baelfire told her. She feels like she owes him something because of what he does for her in the future, but that's never been how Killian saw it. Ever. ]
Aye. I appreciate your words, Graham. I do. Keep her safe. Keep her happy. I'll be in touch.
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Loving her also means knowing when you don't quite measure up to what she deserves after everything she's been through.
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I would die all over again for her, if there was no other choice. You have one, but it's up to you to take it.
I can't make you care about yourself enough to be willing to survive. But I hope with time you will realize what you are leaving behind. It's worth living for.
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[ He knows what it's like to have your heart held and your everything manipulated. Only his manipulator was Gold. The snake. The serpent with no redemption. At least Regina tried to change. She did change. The Dark One has done everything in his power not to. ]
If you had lived do you think you'd be with her? Back home that is.
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( he's not giving himself a pass, though some might think he should. when he made the choice that left him powerless, isn't he responsible for the dangers wrought? )
I don't know. and that's far from the point, because even if some mad fate brought me to a world I no longer exist in, she'd still be in love with you.
you might find yourself worthless, but she doesn't. and you're throwing away more than just your own chances by choosing to give up.
you have the mercy of time here. I suggest you use it. you might think this is selfless, but I think it's quite the opposite.
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it doesn't matter what could have been. what matters is what is. and if she loves you and you choose to abandon her, then you don't love her as much as you think you do.
( frankly, that's a little harsh. but nothing seems to be getting through, perhaps harsh might. )
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[ And he's bloody tired of hearing it. ]
You don't get to tell me how I feel about her.
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you're not sparing her anything by choosing to abandon her. if Emma had a say in this, would she want you to give up? I certainly doubt so, considering how upset my wife is at the idea, and she knows you only little.
this place can offer you opportunity. you may not care about your own life, but there are others that do. consider them if you can't consider yourself. don't use me as an excuse to give up, that's your own choice.
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Perhaps you're right though.
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I know I am. but I have perspective you don't, I've had longer to face the prospect that I was meant to die. it wasn't an easy one to face. I know that the world kept spinning without me, Emma found her family and broke the curse. for a time I even wondered if I was avoiding the inevitable.
maybe I am; as long as there is a chance to keep fighting, though, I'm going to. I have things worth living for, worth fighting for. and if you have a woman that loves you, I imagine you do as well.
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Aye. I appreciate your words, Graham. I do. Keep her safe. Keep her happy. I'll be in touch.
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( if not for himself, then for Emma. )